My friend, - no names here:) -, I have so much respect and be so grateful and proud to 'have' you in my world.
In your hard time you stay strong and make the best of every day again. Strong to stay soft. Lovely. But sharp. Clear; grateful for all (what in my eyes is always the startingpoint) learning and teaching as no other; sharing your gifts throughout everything.
In every circumstance, like also some people in concentration camps for example showed us, you can be extraordinary great. Human. Wise. Caring. Subtle. Tender. Strong.
Amazing. More beautiful than words can say/ explain. Above that!
Just a little silent 'shoutout' as I do often in my self during the day:)
I remember the research with the intoxinated spider. Those pictures of the spiderwebs which went viral some years ago.
One with weed; the spider almost did nothing. No 'working' web. One with coffee; the spider created the web fast but with a lot of holes. One with lsd or mdma (I forgot); the web was finished and beautiful, but only the corners. So, there was a web, but with no worth.
A sober spider; a totally finished web. The only one what was able to catch flies.
Maybe it's similar with us. Some drugs gives us great experiences and a great 'picture of the whole'. But what to do with it? A lot of people who often use smartdrugs end up like the spider with mdma; a vision but nothing 'what works'.